Thinking

This is an assortment at random:

1. Our group since workshop have changed our set, our thesis, and our minds. We are now focusing on self reflection (in self image, regret, and such) which really compliments the aspect of the piece we love the most: mirrors. Working thesis: When we view ourselves positively, we are able to live our lives more fully. We now also have a song that we have chosen to score our piece as well as have incorporated flagging ribbon as a costume piece and prop. We are breathing new life into our piece and focusing on new aspects that I think we are more excited about and give us more room to play. Loneliness still lingers in our piece, but I think its a smaller portion of a larger pie.
2. I just saw Next to Normal this evening, and I highly recommend it to all. Its a fantastic show and is jam packed with familiar (as in family) themes that I believe anyone can relate to. It has made me think of the relationship I currently have with one of my sisters, how a void is growing between us and I feel helpless, unable to stop it. But that is another matter. The important thing is that the show affected me. My room mate and I talked about the show afterwards and about theatre and the point was made on both sides: "If a work of theatre doesn't affect you (make you think about who you are, your place in the world, your life, your loved ones, a social injustice, a petty thorn in the sidewalk) than what is the point of it?" We are in a business of change. We change ourselves in order to change others in order to change the world. If one didn't think about what the social commentary of a show was after it was performed, the show didn't do its job.
3. I need to think more about my obsessions. Procrastination is a formidable opponent and makes me obsess about my school work and life. Its interesting because its an obsession I never show. It boils in my gut but never breathes a day in my life. I am obsessed with my path in life. Like it were a child, I want to make sure that it is in the right place at the right time, but in essence have (or feel like I have) no control over it. 
4. I will write a poem tonight.
5. I want to be a better person.