The positive power of problem-solving (or too much decaffeinated tea for one day causes nostalgic rambling)

 So I acknowledge that I am somewhat obsessive about things, particularly things that I commit myself to doing. However, I am very sad to say after many hours of searching I was unable to find a chest for the stage mostly because apparently these things are somewhat hard to come by these days and people like to change several hundred dollars for them. (those jerks) After about 5 hours of unsuccessful searching today I was feeling somewhat beat down, an emotion not aided by the lack of actual homework I have done this weekend. As well, I was feeling somewhat depressed about the amount of physical movement stuff that other groups were doing that I cannot do. So I drove over to the school for a rehearsal and felt increasingly anxious about my lack of box and after meeting with my group for a two hour rehearsal I came to a wonderful realization we are going to do this. We are going to do this and do this piece wonderfully, because we have to. Every semester at this time we all face the same challenges papers piling up, projects piling up, having to be at the university for far to many hours only to realize that we haven't seen our families nearly enough. Still we keep doing it. There has to be a reason for this madness (and it is madness, because we are always surprised when it happens and Albert Einstein said that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results every time). We do it because we want to and we love doing it to ourselves. I know every year I age myself about 10 years. This summer I was talking to my German professor Feisal, one of the most amazing people in the entire world, and he asked me what I thought my age was. I of course responded 21. Feisal asked me how old I felt and after thinking I said I felt about 40, which he agreed with me on, but he told me that I am so old because I carry too much worry on me.
 We are all carrying so much worry on us right now that we can't see past the forest and into the trees. We are all worrying about this project and every other like it is the end of the world as we know it. I am not suggesting we shouldn't worry about it, because of course we should a little bit of worry is good for us. What I am proposing is we step back for a minute see the amazing work we have done in almost no time at all and just realize we can figure it out and we will, because we always do. It's too bad the department won't help us, but we'll just work around it, because we always do. I'll write all my papers, because I always do and after that is out of my hands. If we can't find a box we will figure something out, my group and I have already pondered on that and found some possible solutions. Feisal always told me I needed to spend less time worrying and more time "chillen" (for anyone who can't figure that out that is German for chilling). I think we need to just take a step back, look at the amazing work we've done and just chill for a second, because before you know it it might be over.